Lost

Have never felt such hopeless despair and darkness.

Lost time, lost youth, lost love.

The time has come for me to make the decision.

It hurts that I have no one to turn to and confide in regarding this matter.

The tears are there but somehow they won't fall.

If only I had more courage, perhaps then it might be just a little easier to bear.

I need to know that it is not too late for me. That I still have time.

Where do I go from here?

The past is out of reach, the present and future are in darkness.

I am envious of those who are in the prime of their youth and lament on how I have wasted my so callously.

What do I do now? What can I do now? What should I do now?

I want to right the mistakes I have made throughout my whole life but don't know how or where to begin.

I'm tired of living with all these regrets but I don't know how to move on.