Have never felt such hopeless despair and darkness.
Lost time, lost youth, lost love.
The time has come for me to make the decision.
It hurts that I have no one to turn to and confide in regarding this matter.
The tears are there but somehow they won't fall.
If only I had more courage, perhaps then it might be just a little easier to bear.
I need to know that it is not too late for me. That I still have time.
Where do I go from here?
The past is out of reach, the present and future are in darkness.
I am envious of those who are in the prime of their youth and lament on how I have wasted my so callously.
What do I do now? What can I do now? What should I do now?
I want to right the mistakes I have made throughout my whole life but don't know how or where to begin.
I'm tired of living with all these regrets but I don't know how to move on.